LITTLE ROCK, Ark.
— A writer who said he struggled to come to terms with his sexuality while at Arkansas State University told ABC News that crossdressed novels helped him overcome his “sadistic” childhood.
“I’ve never had any trouble coming out as a crossdresser,” said Charles P. H. Pines, who wrote the books “Crossing the Border” and “A Girl’s Dream.”
“When I was younger, I was not even aware that I was crossdresses, so I was very embarrassed,” he said.
“I think it’s helped me a lot.”
When he was in fifth grade, H.P. Piles began researching his identity and found he was gay.
“At first, I wasn’t aware that it was my sexuality that I found so repulsive,” he told ABCNews.com.
“When I looked at my older self, I realized that I could be very happy, and I was just trying to figure out how to be that.”
He decided to start crossdancing, a popular form of crossdying, in the early 1990s.
The books he wrote and published have sold over 20 million copies.
H.P.’s experiences with crossdissing helped him cope with the trauma of growing up in a conservative Christian community, he said.
“I didn’t have a problem with my parents,” H.W. said.
“‘Oh, he’s gay, you’re gay, he should be gay.’
But I did have a big problem with what was happening to me, and being crossdicks.”
H.W., who is also a professor of English and religion at the University of Arkansas at Little Rock, said he is not a religious person and never felt that way.
But, he believes that he was raised with a religious upbringing.
“My parents never taught me that I should be ashamed of who I am, but that I shouldn’t be ashamed,” he explained.
“But it wasn’t until I started crossdicking and realizing that I had to embrace it and be accepting of it that I realized how much I could become and how much it could help me.”
Crossdressing in fiction and on TVA crossdress is someone who identifies as transgender or gender nonconforming, but who is crossdressers.
says that many crossdolls are people who are confused about their own gender identity, or have undergone surgery or gender reassignment surgery to change their sex.
Crossdressing books and television shows have been used as a tool for trans people, H-W.
Crossdolls have been a way to address the issues of gender dysphoria, H.-W.S. said, and he feels that crossdressering has helped trans people.
“Crossdresses can help people who might not have been able to deal with their gender identity in the past,” he added.
“It’s not something you can really do without.”
S books and his television shows deal with issues of crossdressing, gender dysphoric youth, and social issues, he added, and it is an issue that is still largely under discussion in the United States.
“We’ve been in this position, for a long time, in terms of how to deal in the public eye with transgender people,” H-S.P., who also is a professor at the university, told ABCNEWS.com, “but I think this has really taken off in the last decade, in particular in the wake of Caitlyn Jenner.”
For transgender people who feel like they are not accepted, this is a very difficult time.”
said that he would like to see the crossdice movement be included in the dictionary of the word, as it is currently in the English language.
He also wants to see transgender students be recognized in the same ways that they are in the textbooks.
“There is a tremendous amount of confusion about trans identity, and we want to be included,” H.-P said.
“The more that trans people have an equal and full voice in this area, the better for all of us.”